these past three days have been mad. at one point of time, i wonder why its happening to me and i wondered for a moment, if thats how hot i could get here, how would be like in hell instead right. i got ultra sick on tuesday, i came to school feeling gloomy and i knew i was falling sick so headed home sadly to realise it gotten worst. that night my temperature was 39.4 degrees, then i really hoped it was just a normal fever.

ironic how when i was young i loved getting sick and not attending school. i guess now its just different, with more responsibilities. ive got lots of assignments to be done, work to go to, and mind you its not easy to find a replacement. i got really pissed, was super sick and lying flat on my bed trying my best to think of something for work the following day, i tried to call the store for a million times and i know that they didnt pick it up on purpose because, i know how that phone works.

at that point of time i wish i could just come up to them and give them all a kooka in their crotches, but i doubt they know the situation i was in so :/ anyway, i shall get over it, such bad memories. the next day, i remembered telling my mom i dont want to take the medicine anymore because all it did was make my head go uber heavy and i started vomitting. its really not a nice feeling to stick my head onto the toilet bowl hoping id stop vomitting, urgh pregnant moments.

ahwell, but i feel much better now, been eating my medicine, been crushing all my pills. work tomorrow and i hope that schedule has not been done up yet, ive really gotta thank shafari and apologise to my managers, even though i when i was sick i felt that they should have helped :( the interview just now was crap, i shan't talk about it, so lazy.

xxx

p.s temasek design school does not accept ugly people, sorry.

i think its time for me to change :/

resolutions are made to just make you sound normal. if you really want to change, it doesnt matter which part of the year it starts from, right? im sick of blogger, im sick of you, and sick at how low you can get. life's something serious, you dont break a leg and laugh over it.

wow lots of work next week, imma straighten my hair now and rush over my resume for ive got work later. avatar was nice, got kinda draggy halfway through but it got better :] movies this season are awesome, perfect getaway, case 39, avatar and im waiting for that new movie coming out soooon.

this year was mad, from a secondary school kid, to a lost poly student and to where i am now. i swear ive changed drastically, im not sure whether its for the good or bad. but i know im not wasting my days away, 17 and in a poly is good enough unlike other noobcakes. i have to learn to settle for things that i have and am capable of having.

xoxo

tsk, stupid mixpod. life's great, i think. i wish i could earn money without working but ahwell thats just crap. christmas is over and countdown to new year is coming but its not gonna be of any relevance to me, dont really care if its new year really. even though ive finished watching that korean drama it still annoys me that i still am feeling regretful and sad over it -.-

i wish i can punch all those fake plastic korean boys in their noses out of envy. yknow ive been spotting millions of blog posts on jane doe i wonder why, it gets annoying when someone posts something youve posted like awhile ago i guess.

school tomorrow and i cant wait, i miss my class. tied between bbbycks tees and awesome local apparels, i guess my pay will tell it all :] i think after today its gonna be lesser time spent with uppereastsiders and emos, as usual, but it doesnt mean anything's gonna change so its alright.

yeah, thats all. my fat brother's been pretty annoying but the word fuck and slap actually shuts him up. everyone should try signature hot chocolate with a tinge of caramel syrup, tastes heavenly to me!

xoxo